A fun Sunday

We had a very leisurely morning in bed, we even had breakfast in bed. We did not get up until nearly noon! I have been told as men age it takes them longer to get erect, or they loose their libido. Well, maybe Master takes some medication to help him or he has not reached that state yet, he did not have any problems this morning! We had some bondage sex and “normal” sex. Hetero stuff. I came each way. Oh it was good.

He likes my ass. Although I am very thin, it is nicely fleshy. Not too much. I must admit, it looks great in chaps and I do not need help by the trousers! Honestly, I am quite proud of it. Well, the things we gay boys worry about.

We had lunch and then Master had his first appointment for the tattoo. We had to travel for just over an hour. I waited in the reception area again. This time there was a different member of staff at reception and he was not very chatty. I looked through their book of designs, and I quite got a taste for it. Of course Master would have the power of decision what design and where to put it, if he ever allowed me to have one. I asked, and he said definitely not. He was quite in pain. He had thought it would be easier, but found it quite a strain to sit through it this time. I assured him it is worth it, it already looks great. The tattooist is such an artist. Of course he has seen our design, but he kind of puts his own interpretation on it.

I find travelling on the train very entertaining. Some people chat so loudly, they might not realise how everyone can hear them. The passengers change depending which area of town you are in. Master just wanted to get home. He was quite sore. I wanted to make him feel better. Especially as I am kind of the cause for his discomfort. If I had not had the vision of this tattoo, he would not have done it. I massaged his feet and he enjoyed that. Everyone enjoys that, don't they? My yoga teacher in SR was also a reflexology practitioner, she treated me sometimes. She explained the theory behind it. I find it very interesting. In Japan it has worked for a thousand years, so there must be some truth in it.

Master made my shake for dinner. We just had bread and cold meats, smoked fish and cheese. It is almost like a Smorgasboard, I like to eat like that. Here one can get this special bread, it is VERY dry and crumbles. It is not really bread. I cannot describe it. But it goes well with cheese.

I brought up that Owe has been more Master this last week or so. I wanted to know if he had realised. Not that it is bad, but I kind of wanted to know if this is how it is now. Master said he had not realised, and my theory that he is a bit stressed and we are developing a situation like in fall, was a good observation. He thinks it is just a phase. Later, after dinner, we were just watching tv, he said he had thought about it. Did I want more discipline? I said I liked it, but to be honest, that is why I brought it up, I find it quite hard work. I do not think we both can keep it up, but I'd like to make it a regular thing, to have a period of time of more discipline. We agreed that we both enjoy that and we can introduce that. Master would determine when it happens, depending on his workload and how long it will be. Dear readers, it is all about communication. It was hard for me to bring it up, but I am very glad I did. It prevented us from slipping into that problem area, and we have agreed to a new level/stage of play/life/relationship.

At some point I will have to bring up sex with other people. At the moment I am very happy, especially after a morning like we had today, but I am used to being shared, and I quite liked it.

An uneventful Saturday and M/S night

Saturday morning I stayed in bed a bit longer again. My abdomen was still hurting a bit. I did a shorter yoga session. Master had left me a note that he had gone to bed very late and to let him sleep. I went to get us something special for breakfast. Our local delicatessen does these sweet bread rolls with raisins in on Saturdays, but one needs to get there early, they sell out quickly. I laid the table and prepared everything for breakfast, then it was 9am and time to wake Master. I was looking forward to having “our time”, but Master was not in the mood. He was ok with me waking him, though. He wanted to go to the gym, as usual. He liked my breakfast surprise. He had introduced me to this delicacy. I have tried to make them, but I do not get it right.

We discussed my meal plans for the next week and what we need to buy. This last week or so he has taken more control. I think it is just a phase, he has quite a lot going on at the moment, and controlling me is an outlet for him. So we left together, he went to the gym and I went shopping. We arranged to meet at the local supermarket so he can help me carry stuff.

The market was not very busy, it is cold and many of the traders take time off. I like to buy at the cheese stall, they always let me try stuff and they have a good selection of sheep's and goat's cheese, which I can eat. I eat more cheese since I live in Stockholm, we have not had the choice in rural Canada.

I met up with Sabine for a short time to have a hot drink. We have not seen much of each other as I have missed yoga and went straight home on Thursday. She is enjoying live.

Master met me when I was paying at the till. He had been home to drop his bag off. I was glad to see him, as I had a lot to carry. Using the car in town is pretty useless. We are not too far from the bus, but most of the time we walk to the shops. We took the bus for 2 stops today, as we had the bags and it was raining slightly. Master calls it a drizzle in English. We took the lift up. It makes a lot of noise, and sometimes I am afraid we will get stuck, but it always works out. Master left me to put everything away, I have my system. He sat down with the paper. I brought him a drink and then started to cook lunch. The kitchen here is separated by a wall, at the house I like the open plan and to be able to see him and we can talk. We have talked about knocking the wall down, but at the moment it works.

I had bought steaks, I thought he needed a good portion of red meat after the last few days and he deserved it. He was pleased with it.

After lunch, after I had cleared up, we both sat down to read. I sat on the floor, as usual.

We had some tea for fika, and I had bought some cake. Now I am in my room, writing my diary.

I miss my chair!

We are back from M/s night, I am a bit hyper, so maybe writing the diary will help me settle.

The bar was in the central part of Stockholm, a posh, trendy one. We were supposed to have our own bar in the function room, but apparently they could not get the staff, so we had to go into the main room. Which was ok, as everyone was dressed vanilla. Well, I wore my fleece lined leather trousers, as they are nice and warm. I had put a black t-shirt on top (I often wear a long sleeved fleecy t-shirt and a short sleeved shirt on top) and Master made me change it. It was the one I wore at Pride, to advertise our club. The writing is only on the back and I had grabbed it quickly. Master thought it was inappropriate to go to another club advertising ours. Ours. Well, I guess it is. I will be a 30% owner when Master pays me back. Martin will have 15%.

We were there first along with Martin, we thought we should as we paid for the room. People were trickling in, it was nice to see people again. I had not realised how much they are my friends, even if I only see them once a month. Later in the evening Master called me over and instructed me to get more drinks. He had had a beer, but I was only allowed soft drinks. He wanted a tonic. I went to the bar, it was quite busy. I ordered our drinks. Suddenly the guy next to me made a remark, he said: the barman just put a gin into the drink, I thought you had ordered a plain tonic? Oh my God, it was the drink for Master, he would be angry with me, he hates gin. We often have the problem actually, although Gin and Tonic is apparently not such a common drink in mainland Europe. I challenged the bar man and he apologised, he said it is so automatic. I thanked my fellow drinker and got chatting. He asked me what kind of group we are. Me, being very open and innocent, just told him. He was interested to know more, he said he was a journalism major and wrote a blog about experiences in bars. He liked to go and watch people. I invited him to come along. I gave Master his drink and as he was in conversation, he just took it off me and did not even look at me. I was walking back to the slaves table, and the guy commented how rude Owe had been. ?? That is normal behaviour for us. I am there to serve. The guy was very interested and the other slaves and subs were happy to chat to him. Most of us think people do misunderstand kink as they do not know anything about it and it needs to be more in the open.

We left about 11pm, our usual time. Of course it took us longer to get home. The trains were busy, with people travelling home and going to different venues. A lot of dance clubs do not start until 11pm. In SR, you would only see a stray dog or in deepest winter MAYBE a bear on the street at that time. Master and I were quiet, we had talked so much all evening. He was holding my hand. Not that effective as we both wore gloves, but still nice.

A long entry

I woke up just before 5am this morning and was sick. I had turned around in bed and somehow not done it right, I had a sudden pain in my abdomen. I was afraid it might affect my guts as well, so put a bag on. It took me a while as I was very sleepy. I went back to bed and curled up. Lying in the foetal position made the pain not so bad. I did the mistake last evening of not stretching my arms and shoulders or legs, I stretched from my torso. Master came in about 6.30, he was surprised I was not up yet. He immediately noticed I did not look right. I told him what had happened and he wanted me to go and lie in his bed. I gratefully accepted. He took his duvet and moved to the sofa. I managed to fall asleep again for about 2 hours. Master came with some tea. He insisted he examine me, he said I could have a hernia. His touch felt so different. He was very professional. He said I should move around, but no lifting or stretching. I was not even allowed to make the beds! We had breakfast together, he said I should give yoga a miss and gym was out of the question.

He went to the gym and went to the site. He came back for lunch. Luckily he had let me know when he would be back, I had met Olaf and Olaf when I came back from shopping (only a few items for lunch) and they invited me for a coffee. I had never been in their flat. It is furnished with modern design pieces. One would not think that when you see them on the street. They are both also into Martial Arts and have won lots of trophies.

In the afternoon Master had his final check-up at the hospital. They took some xrays and had decided it was all healed. He does not need to wear the splint any more, but should still do his exercises. I did my homework while he was at the hospital. I was struggling with it. We are supposed to write a report, it has to be in a certain style and paragraphs. I have kind of written what I want to write, now I need to put into a report. That is how I do it, otherwise there is no structure and I jump from one thought to the next. My abdomen has been fine, sometimes I forgot about it, and I would get up from the table for example and it would hurt.

Master decided we should go out for dinner and celebrate. We asked Torben and Stine, as we had not seen them for some time. Sadly they already had plans. Of course, on a Friday evening! We went just the two of us. Master looked on the internet and we found a newly opened bar with tapas. That is not very widely known in America (and Canada), so I enjoy that. It was very good. I was allowed a SMALL glass of Rioja. It was very nice, and I would have liked more, but as Master had pointed out when we ordered I could have “a small glass”, I knew not to ask for more. Although of course we had free speech. We definitely want to go to Spain some time. Barcelona is supposed to be great for gay and kink.

It is amazing how we still find topics to talk about. We came home quite early, I am quite tired. We are having a M/s night at a bar in town tomorrow, we have hired a function room. Some members had discussed a get-together on the clubs site, so we “owners” decided to do an official event. Some members who go to other themed nights had organised get-togethers via the club website. Funny, it is not really an organised community here. We just have the club and somewhere to hang out. There are no competitions and we do not do any charity fund raising. There is no management committee or committee for organising other events. Martin does it mostly, and sometimes members help.

Oh, I am plugged again. Before we went out to dinner Master examined me again, and then he allowed me to put the plug in again. I noticed it more, and I sometimes clenched while we were at the restaurant, just to feel it. I had a wonderful evening.

An incident causes me to get punished

So, yesterday I told Master that I was very horny. Due to my physical situation, I actually do not get hard like that very often. When I orgasm, it is because of stimulation of my prostate. Well, which I had yesterday. But that had stopped, Master had taken the dildos out when he unstrapped me. But I was still horny, even after walking around, tidying up, getting ready for bed, sitting writing my diary.

I hardly ever come by using hands on my penis. Last night I could have done. Master put my hands into mitts and put me to bed, tucking the blanket in. I could still rub myself a little, but I did not come. Of course I had my belt on. Well, this morning I had to change my sheet. But that happens often enough anyway. Master send me a message later, I will get punished tonight. He had seen the sheet in the wash. What is with him? He is being so forceful again. But I like it!

After school I came home for lunch, Master was out. He had hung the sheet up to dry and put a new one on my bed already. I went to yoga. Often we go for a drink afterwards, but I thought I better get home. Master was at home and made me my shake and made sure I had something to eat. He told me to cook him dinner, he had only had a sandwich for lunch. I sat with him for dinner, he had made me my shake. I was waiting for him to instruct me with my punishment. He acted as if nothing had happened. We were talking and then he wanted to sit and watch a quiz show on tv. We sometimes like to watch it, it is a general knowledge quiz and I can practise my Swedish. When it was finished he ordered me into the playroom. He told me to get undressed. He put my hands into hanging mitts and hooked my arms up. I had to stretch a little to be able to stand. He put a spreader between my legs. I was still able to put my whole foot down, but was stretched. He took my belt off and put a cock ring on with some weights attached. He had prepared that. It was not too bad, but a very uncomfortable sensation. He took my plug out. The way he tossed it on the floor I knew it was gone for the night at least. Funny really, for me being not plugged is something negative. If Master takes it out, or orders it out, then it is negative. Sometimes I decide to not have it in, maybe I am sore, or I want to be ready for Master, but that is a positive thing.

He flicked the string with the weights, it started to pull and tug. He stood back and watched me. I was not blindfolded or gagged. We looked at each other, I tried not to show how uncomfortable I was or make a sound. From time to time he moved the weights. I could see he enjoyed watching me.

He moved behind me and touched me, stroking my back. My shoulders were hurting a little from having my arms stretched above my head. He touched my shoulders muscles and it was not nice. It made me jump a little, which caused the weights to swing. Aargh!! Still standing behind me, he was playing with my nipples. I could feel his hard penis against my butt. I wanted him so much! He fingered me a little, I was moaning and pressed against him. So he moved around and started kissing me, hard. I did not get a chance to respond. He suddenly withdrew and left the room. I was all aroused with nowhere to go. I was sweaty. Master came back with a drink, he had a straw in the glass for me. He took a chair and sat down in front of me. He had undressed and put his boots on! I did not know they are even here. He looked so sexy! He was stroking his dick, I wanted to take it into my mouth so desperately. He was teasing me, asking me if I liked what I saw, did I want to do this and did I want to do that? I knew he expected me to say only “yes, master”. Finally he came and released my arms, ordered me on my knees and I only needed a very short time to get him off. He said to me: Good boy, this is how we have fun! Not by yourself! You are mine and your pleasure is mine! Understood!

He of course knew very well that last night had been an accident, but as I had mentioned I had been horny he had to take action. And I very much enjoyed our scene. He told me to clean up, have a wash and then he had arranged to Skype with Ruth. Oh, great. Who does that, have a hot session with their Master and then speak to their mother! On video chat!

We did not talk long, the connection was not very good. We have arranged for Ruth to come here for Easter. She will work out the details of flights etc with Master. Master thinks we should organise her an upgrade, and we will pay for that. Master allowed me to write my diary, but it is time for bed now. Of course I am belted again now, but the plug is out. I have washed it and put it away safely. I feel so empty, but I am quite tired, so should be able to sleep ok.

A busy day with a nice evening being bound

I did not write my diary yesterday, nothing much happens on a Tuesday. Our kitchen group decided they wanted to go ice skating together. I asked Master if it is ok for me to go as well, and he said yes. He has to be at the building site every day, there are so many deliveries and questions. The work was scheduled to finish by the end of the week, but they reckon it will be another week at least. I went to the gym and then I went ice skating. I am getting better. I had a really fun time. Master and I met for lunch, he was stuck at the club, so we went somewhere in the neighborhood there. I have not been to the site for some time, wow, it has changed! I had my homework to do, and I did some yoga to stretch out after skating. Master has gone to the gym. I am preparing us dinner, we only had a small lunch. I have got the vegetables and fruit all cut up ready for Master to put into the blender. Somehow he does better drinks, maybe it is because he puts the different items in a different times. I just chuck everything in. Actually, we have a book with recipes and sometimes he tells me to get certain fruit or vegetables when I go shopping so he can make a drink. Oh, isn't it lovely how he looks after me!

Master had a shower at home and asked me to join him. We used my bathroom as it is a wet room. Of course I ended up on my knees with his penis in my mouth. After dinner he put me into a straigt jacket, plugged both ways and sat me on my stool and restrained my legs. We watched the programme we like to watch. I could not concentrate on the programme. I had to concentrate to sit quietly and not fuck myself. Master kept touching me, he likes to play with my hair. I loved it. I loved the attention I was getting. I loved being bound. I loved having to control myself. Anyway, I better go to bed. I have to be careful not to masturbate tonight. Maybe I will ask Master to restrain my hands.

Why bother with a headline

So, it was household day today. I did P/L's flat. Master went to the building site and then Martin came to help sort out some stuff in the office. It looks like there is a lot of paperwork that can be shredded. Really?! Why did they not sort it out before. It took me days to bring those boxes out of my room! Martin is such a nice guy, he told us about his trip to Australia. He lived there for 2 years after finishing Uni. We showed him the design for the new tattoo, he knows about that stuff. He said a few of the symbols mean that a young man has reached maturity and seniority in the community. Master has booked appointments with the tattoo artist.

We did some bondage last night. Oh, I was ready for it! It took me some time to come down from the scene last weekend, but I was soo ready for it. It was a no sex session, which was good.

A quiet Sunday

We had a leisurely morning, I stayed up quite late last night. We enjoyed talking with another kinky couple. We talked about normal stuff as well. After lunch we did a trial run going to the University. Of course the trains are on a Sunday timetable, but it still takes the same time to travel the distance, just not that frequently. The campus has it's own station. We walked around the neighborhood for a bit, but I got cold. I had a bath when we got home, and Master had some food ready, along with my shake. It gets dark so early. We do not have any curtains in front of the windows onto the balcony, only blinds. They are more useful in summer, actually. So one can see all the lights in the flats. I find that quite comforting. The tenants here are all so quiet. Per and Lasse are still on Tenerife. I am planning to give their flat the once over next week, just to keep on top of it.

Meeting friends

I did my usual shopping this morning on the market, it was cold! Master went to the gym and sauna.

We had to get some flowers and a bottle of wine for our lunch date. In Sweden one brings flowers if you are invited, and alcohol. A lot of people have dinner parties, as going out is quite expensive. On Fridays you can see the queue at the train station people buying flowers. We had to look for the entrance to the house. It is an old apartment block. The flat is furnished with antiques and fine paintings. It was all very tidy. Ingrid looked very at home there. It was basic home cooked food, apparently the accountant is an enthusiastic amateur chef. He is actually a very funny guy. It was obvious that Ingrid had instigated the invitation, but he has been to enough upper class social functions where he was sat next to single ladies that he is quite good at small talk. We felt a bit out of sorts there. We went for a walk when we left. Stockholm in winter is quite magical, with all the lights. There was an ice rink on a public square. We stopped to have a look for a while. It was busy, being a weekend. We bumped into Mats and Sahid when we came home. Mats is still limping a bit. They had been to Sahid's family for a meal. We invited them for drinks later. Master had to go out and get some. Well, we have the office full of alcohol, but we d not want to touch that at all, it is club stock. We both were not keen to have any alcohol, as we had some wine with lunch. He just bought juice, posh juice. We both drink mostly water. I need to keep well hydrated.

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Sorry readers, I have got my schedule all messed up!


I just checked back and I will be on  track again from tomorrow.

Update II

Master and I went to the gym together. He stayed on to go to the sauna for a short time. Ingrid phoned us to invite us for lunch tomorrow, at the accountant's house. Master reckons the accountant has a skeleton in his cupboard, and to just call him by his profession seems right.

He has accepted the job at the University! He was nervous about making the phone call. I think he will be an asset. He had an assessment with the physio. He officially is allowed to go back to the gym, and is supposed to leave the splint off more and use the hand as usual. I went to yoga after lunch and had a drink with Sabine afterwards.

Normal day

Master and I went to the gym together. He stayed on to go to the sauna for a short time. Ingrid phoned us to invite us for lunch tomorrow, at the accountant's house. Master reckons the accountant has a skeleton in his cupboard, and to just call him by his profession seems right.

He has accepted the job at the University! He was nervous about making the phone call. I think he will be an asset. He had an assessment with the physio. He officially is allowed to go back to the gym, and is supposed to leave the splint off more and use the hand as usual. I went to yoga after lunch and had a drink with Sabine afterwards.

2days as my internet is fucked

I went to the gym this morning. It is still hard work. Then I met with some people from my yoga class to go ice skating. I am not very good, but I like the whole atmosphere. We had fun. Being active kept me warm. I was very hungry when I came home, luckily Master had cooked. He manages much better. He often takes the splint off. He met with his old boss from the hospital, he wanted his advice about the teaching job. They have talked about Owe coming back to the hospital part time, to do alongside his lecturing. His old boss needs to see if there is a position available. Master sounded very hopeful. I am not sure how I feel about it. I know he needs to go back to work, for his own sanity, and as well to earn. Honestly, we cannot afford to live off the income of the rents, and the club will not make any money soon. Yes, I have my money. That won't last forever either. But I have quite enjoyed us being both at home so much. Although it caused tension as well.

In the afternoon I had homework to do. Master went to the gym. We enjoyed dinner and then watched some tv. I have trouble staying awake after such an active day.

We do get quite a lot of homework these days. I do not know how my class mates manage to do it! Most of them work, often unsociable hours, so they can go to school. I had lunch at home, it is quite easy to get home and have a light bite before I go to yoga. Some people were complaining about being sore after ice skating! I did some shopping for tonight's dinner. Master had gone to the site. Martin is there almost all the time, so it is ok. Next week they want to sort through some of the boxes stored here. Master wanted to talk to me about the job offer.

Ice skating

I went to the gym this morning. It is still hard work. Then I met with some people from my yoga class to go ice skating. I am not very good, but I like the whole atmosphere. We had fun. Being active kept me warm. I was very hungry when I came home, luckily Master had cooked. He manages much better. He often takes the splint off. He met with his old boss from the hospital, he wanted his advice about the teaching job. They have talked about Owe coming back to the hospital part time, to do alongside his lecturing. His old boss needs to see if there is a position available. Master sounded very hopeful. I am not sure how I feel about it. I know he needs to go back to work, for his own sanity, and as well to earn. Honestly, we cannot afford to live off the income of the rents, and the club will not make any money soon. Yes, I have my money. That won't last forever either. But I have quite enjoyed us being both at home so much. Although it caused tension as well.

In the afternoon I had homework to do. Master went to the gym. We enjoyed dinner and then watched some tv. I have trouble staying awake after such an active day.

Tuesday short

There is not much to report, I had my usual Tuesday. We went to meditation and had a tea together afterwards. Master says he will need to spend a lot of time at the building site now, as everything is starting to come together and a lot of decisions need to be made. Martin is back from Australia, hopefully he can take over more now. As manager he will have a better idea about a few things anyway.

A normal weekday?

Last night I felt Master coming home. He wore a different coat than the one he wore for our walk and had forgotten to change all the bits one needs, so did not have his keys! So lucky I had felt him coming home! He probably had somehow communicated to me to buzz him in. Our timing was perfect!

This morning I helped him get dressed for his meeting. He was actually nervous about it. We could not decide if a tie was too formal, so we asked Ingrid for advice! She sometimes must be sick of us asking her advice! Master had planned to go by public transport, then changed his mind. He suggested I could do a major shop with the car. The lease is nearly up, so it made sense. The hypermarket had “spring cleaning” offers on, so I stocked up on washing powder and some other cleaning stuff. I found my way around town quite well. I felt a bit uneasy being out on my own. Owe has been quite strict lately, despite knowing that I was out because he had instructed me to, being out on my own in the car was not nice. I found a good car space at the university. I waited for Master to come out. I had to go to the toilet. The security staff questioned me, when I explained my partner had a job interview here, they let me through. I hardly ever say my husband. It is not because I have a problem with being with a man, I just call him Master usually. If I say it with muggles I get funny looks. And I do not want to rub it in that I am married to a man. As well, for me the marriage is more a formality. Our Master/slave relationship is much more important to me and our dominant one. If I say partner, people can make up their own mind what that means.

Master phoned me just as I was back in the lobby. I was behind him, he could hear my phone ring. He turned around and had such a big smile on his face when he saw me, it gave me rush. Of course he could have smiled anyway as the meeting went so well.

I told him what I had bought and I would like to drop stuff off at the house. We needed to check the mail anyway, so we drove there. Owe might have had an encounter with a spirit. I had felt a strong presence since Friday, but it was positive. I think it was Arne. And as Master felt something, it kind of proved it to me.

I had to do my house work when we came home and I did some studying. Master did some stuff on the computer. He has been offered a lecturing position, but it would only be a few hours sporadically, teaching anaesthesia. He has to do a teaching qualification online. He is very interested, but is still considering all of his options.

When I was at the shop, I bought an eye liner. I had asked a shop assistant for some advice, what would be soft enough to be able to draw on skin, but washes off easily. I explained I wanted to try a design for a tattoo before committing myself to it. She suggested an eye liner. I would never have even looked in the make up department. Master was curious when I asked him if I can draw something on him. When I asked him to take his shirt off he had an idea. He sat on the sofa and I kind of sat on his legs. It was much more difficult to draw on skin than I had thought. It took quite a while, Master was very patient and held still. We took some photographs of the design so he can show it to the tattooist. He wants to have it done. I think he looks really sexy with it. He is already sexy, but this is very manly.

A good play session

Well, it is Sunday. What a day I had yesterday!

Master had it all planned. Like a good Master should. I went to the Medical Center for 8pm. It took me a while to find it in the dark, but I was there on time. Master was not too late. Together we found the way home easy. He wanted something to eat, and I sat with him. He checked the house! Then he sent me to bed in the cage. He told me to wait for him in the morning, and not do my routine. I was allowed to go the bathroom if I needed.

I needed to go the bathroom, and went into mine, not to wake Master, and then crawled back into my cage. I was very expectant and I actually got a bit hard. Master got up, went to the bathroom and ordered me to wait for him. I could hear him move something heavy into the living room. He had put the cage there. He called me and locked me in there. He fed me his penis, then some porridge and a drink. He changed my position twice, but I was in there for a few hours while he got on with other preparations. He hardly talked to me, just checking from time to time I was ok. He took me into the playroom.

You know what, I actually do not want to describe what happened. It was bondage, it was physically hard, but it was good. Then Sven and Stephan turned up! I helped Sven get into his rubber suit! I concentrated on my breathing and tried not to take the smell in. I even played a little with his genitals! I was so in the scene, I did not notice the rubber anymore. Master was put into bondage as well. There was some electro. I can not recall any details, I was so out of it. It was intense, that I know as I am bit sore today.

Suddenly I heard Master talking to me. He gave me a drink. He knew I like some time to myself and left me to come back after loosening some restraints I had asked him to. After some time Sven came back in, he spoke to me gently and started to release the restraints. I was ready to be freed. He gave my limbs a short massage and told me to stretch. He took the catheter out. He has done that before! The last thing was the hood. Just then Master came in. He had showered. He held me while Sven undid the hood. I was still buzzing. I wanted to be close to him. I could have fucked him! Sven warned me to close my eyes before he took the hood off. I think I would have closed them anyway, I just wanted to enjoy the sensations a bit longer. Master ruffled my hair and I opened my eyes. He had a happy look on his face. Stephan came in with some wine and I grabbed one. This had been the most intense experience. I do not want to say the best. But it was very good. Different. I am so grateful to Master for organising it. I guess, we all had fun. But I think as he has not been able to do much, he wanted Sven to stand in for him.

The guys ordered some takeaway, I had not eaten all day, and now it would have been too late for me. Actually, I had no idea what time it was. Master helped me have a wash, I was too exhausted for a shower. Suddenly the high I had felt had gone and I was tired. Master agreed that I could go to bed. I wanted to sleep in the cage. I knew he would be tired and might have preferred to have his room to himself. He made me a shake and a hot chocolate. He said I needed the sugar. I was awake for a bit. I had asked Master to leave the doors open, so I could hear them. It is very comforting.

This morning I awoke very early. I recalled the events from yesterday, as far as I can remember them. I took the liberty to get into Master's bed after I had been to the bathroom. I made sure not to disturb him. I kind of dozed off again, when I suddenly had his splintered hand in my face! He had turned around and stretched while half asleep. Of course he had no idea I was in the bed. He did not mind me being there. He asked how I felt after yesterday. I thanked him for organising it. We talked a little, then he wanted to sleep some more. I made a start cleaning the playroom. Some parts I still cannot recall. I just know it was very intense. Apparently it should be on camera, as we have cctv. I am not sure if I even want to see it. I got dressed and prepared breakfast on our little table by the window. We enjoy watching the birds, so I took some bird food out. It has been very icy lately, and the lake is frozen, at least around the shore. I went to have a look, the sun was shining on the pier. I got lost in the fresh air, the birds singing, the light wind brushing my face whilst having the sun warm me. I did not hear Master at first, he stood at the end of the pier calling me. He said he had rescued us from having nothing to eat; I had put something into the oven to bake and totally forgotten about it. He told me off for it, but he was not angry. He instructed me to stand in front of the oven to warm up my hands and face. It must be such a strain for him sometimes, to deal with my

odd behaviour. Like last Sunday, when I had that meltdown at the Centre. After I had run out, he took a while to join me. He reluctantly explained later that the parents had made some comments about people without kids not being accepting, and kids will pay their pension and be their carers in old age. He went over to them and explained that people should not jump to conclusions, that I had problems in social situations and can easily get anxious. It shut the person up. He did not wait for an apology. For me it does not build up, it just hits me. One moment I am ok, then I kind of explode. Or I do not. I internalise it. It was Erik who taught me to remove myself from the situation and take some time out. He had learned it through long battles with his siblings. Once it backfired, in SR. I was cooking dinner, Robert was out in the garage, Erik and Barbara at work. Suddenly I felt overwhelmed and decided to take some time in the basement. The dinner burnt, we had to throw the pots out. Robert said he came in just in time before something caught fire. He was exaggerating. He was furious. They had to go out for dinner. I had to sit in the truck. It was winter, so I was cold. Marjorie was allowed to take me my shake, and she sneaked me a tea. When we came back I got punished. It was the worst I ever got. Erik was not happy with me. Anyway, back to today:

It was nice watching Master finish making breakfast, make coffee, cook my porridge. I made a comment, kind of apologising for him to have to fetch me in this morning. He said it is ok, he has learned to deal with it. He wanted to know why I had been outside. Isn't it obvious? It was a lovely morning! We are at the lake! He told me he is thinking about moving to the house permanently and get a long term tenant. How did I feel about it? It was a bit sudden, I was not sure. I like both places. Anyway, in the end it is his decision. As slave I am happy where he is. And as me.

We tidied up together. Master wanted to go back to the flat as he has the meeting at the University tomorrow. I was making his bed when I fainted. Master took it in his stride. We think it was caused as I had not eaten much the day before. He was nervous underneath. I was not out for long, only a few seconds. I kind of saw myself going down. After a short rest we finished packing up and I even drove home.

Master called Per on his holiday to get permission to fetch a blood sugar testing kit, which we did.

My levels were a bit low, so Master said I have to eat well today. I had brought some food from the freezer from the house and prepared that. Sven phoned to check on us, that was kind. I thanked him for a great session. I had already thanked him last night, but I wanted to thank him again. He and Master arranged to meet in the evening. They are out now. I think they are back at the bar we went to last Saturday.

After lunch I fell asleep. I must have been asleep for a short period only. Master had coffee ready. I had dreamt of another tattoo. I had woken up suddenly, so I felt a bit groggy. As Master does not like heights, and after the episode this morning, I asked if it was ok for me to get some fresh air on the balcony. Master insisted I put a coat on and stay away from the balustrade. I found it quite funny. He is so manly, a Leather Master even, a no-nonsense kind of guy. But when it comes to heights, he is a chicken. Master also wanted some fresh air so we had a walk. Later I tried to recall the tattoo and draw it, but it never came out quite right. I made us something to eat. The bar serves food, most bars have to, something to do with the selling of alcohol license. We do not have to offer food, as we are a members club. Master has been gone quite some time, I am off to bed.

Preparations...

I am writing my diary early. Master gave me strict instructions this morning. I am to be shaven everywhere. He took me to the Barber to have my hair trimmed. We went to the gym together and came home for lunch. Then he told me to get stuff together as we will stay at the house all weekend. He “recommended” I give yoga a miss. I had to go to the house, stock up with some food, give it a clean, prepare the playroom, make our beds etc. He told me to clean upstairs as well and put towels out upstairs. I thought he was up to something! He asked me to come and pick him up. I am going there for 8pm. I had a light dinner. I am not sure when we will start. I cleaned myself this morning and we should be alright.




To keep with the schedule, tomorrow there will be no new post..

 Thursday it will be long, and hopefully you will enjoy it! I recommend you read Owe's entry on his blog first. But read it in a private space, Owe's posting is far more explicit.
As usual, any comments welcome.

A normal day

Well, It was another normal Thursday. Master went to the building site and to the gym. He looks forward to being able to get back into it again. I came home after class to eat with him and make his dinner. It was a bit of a rush. I was able to relax at yoga. I had some time with Sabine afterwards, and even came along to the Centre for dinner. How will I cope if/when Master works again? Sometimes it is too much, we spend quite a bit of time together, but then I miss him as well.

We had our usual catch-up. Master is finding it quite tiring, he is just not used to the work. He enjoys it, though.

A Wednesday session in the playroom

Last night Master and I had kind of a spark between us, but we did not take it any further. We did this morning! First I woke him in my usual manner, he came very quickly. So we did it again a while later, slower. We had breakfast and Master went to the Barber again. I needed to do my routine. I need to wait for at least an hour after eating. It can be such a restraint to my day. I had a shower and when I came out Master said to me: don't bother getting dressed! He wanted me on the chair. He strapped me in. He put a blindfold on me, which is VERY unusual. Anyway, he then proceeded to tickle me with a feather and other implements. Or sometimes just stroke me. It was waves of sensations. Being blindfolded was good. If I had been able to see what he had in his hand, the effect would have been minimal. I do not know how long it was, but when he released me and ordered me to get up it was a shock to the system. It is good to just lay there for a while, or for the Master to release the restraints REALLY slowly, so I can come back to reality. People call it headspace. It is like meditation, or being drunk, or on drugs. Although I do not know what being really drunk or on drugs feels like. One is away from the world. Let go. Just the here and now matters, the feeling on the skin, the pressure, the voice of your Master. Your Master and you are one unit (ideally). The total letting go and give your life into the hands of another person, that is the best about bondage. The trust you need to have with the person who has bound you. The Master needs to be a strong personality, must enjoy being in charge. They hold your life in their hands, and they need to know what they are doing. How deep they can take you. A bad bondage experience can have consequences, like a bad drug trip. Luckily I have not really had it with Master. At the beginning it was not always 100% successful, but now we are really in tune. With Robert it sometimes went wrong. He sometimes was very selfish and did not “read” me. Luckily I had Barbara and Erik who helped me get back. I guess that I sometimes had a bad experience might have to do with my “special needs”. I cannot describe it when a scene goes wrong, but I am sure any readers who have submitted can understand what I am talking about. Of course it can be something stupid like the room being cold, a noise, a false movement which causes pain, even for just a moment. Sometimes there is an interruption and one cannot get back, or even start. The phone rang just after Master had tightened the last strap, but I managed to tune it out. Master ignored it as well. That is why we have an answer phone!

So, what else? After I got myself together and dressed, I cooked lunch and prepared something for Master to take with him. He had checked the answer phone. He has been invited to meet someone at the University to talk about a job offer! Great! I am sure he would enjoy lecturing!

Anyway, I went to the gym in the afternoon. It is quite interesting to be there at different times. I quite enjoyed the exercise after being bound this morning.

I came home and tidied the playroom and polished the gear we have here. I had to remind myself to have my shakes. I was glad when Master came home. It was too quiet here.

A short Tuesday

Tuesday as normal. Busy. I missed Master at meditation, at first. I have to get used to it, we are not joined at the hip. I am an independent person! I am his slave, but that does not mean I am bound to him. He was already at home when I came back and had a tea ready for me! Tonight we were both tired.

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I did some cleaning before I went to see the physio therapist with Master. We had to go to the hospital. People kept saying hello to him and of course noticed his splinted hand. I asked: did he feel uncomfortable being a patient in the hospital where he works? He said it was ok, as he mostly knows other doctors and staff related to operations, so dealing with the other staff is new to him as well. The appointment did not take long, the physio said there is not much she can show him as exercises. She showed him a few things he can do and I was to pay attention to make sure he does them correctly. I cooked lunch when we came home and then it was nearly time for him to go to work. I suggested I can drive him and pick him up, but he said he does not know when exactly he can finish and does not want me to have to wait, either at home or at the clinic. The last appointment is 19.30, but he expects to overrun, and than he has paperwork to complete. I am suspicious he does not want me there. It was the same with the other clinic. He is not usually so secretive about being gay. Maybe it is for the reason he said. He suggested I can keep myself busy by cleaning the house.

I took the car. I vacuumed, dusted, aired, mopped the floor. The beds do not have linen on, it looks very cold and sad. Our neighbor came round, she wanted to know when we are moving back. They had gotten used to having us around and miss us. OH! I said it is likely to be mid-March. P/L are away until then and Master wants us to be at the town house. I actually put off going home, but the house was even more depressing than the flat would be. When I came home, Sahid was coming home. He invited me in. I gladly accepted and spent an hour with them catching up. Sahid is studying part-time, and is very busy.

I had prepared Master a snack to take with him. He does not like eating very late. I thought I will probably still be up when he comes home, but I had everything ready to make tea. I did some studying, and jumped when the door bell rang. It was just Master warning me he was here. I made some tea for him and we had a catch up. He wanted some cuddles and now I am going to bed. Long day for me tomorrow!

Bondage!

Last night Master strapped me into a straightjacket. We borrowed one from P/L. My stuff is at the house. I miss my sleepsack. Master would not be able to do the straps anyway, I think. He was struggling yesterday. But it was a nice feeling to be in a jacket. It was not very tight, we watched some tv, so it was supposed to be comfortable. I managed to free myself, I made it look more of a struggle to please Master.

Today we had a leisurely day. We went to the Centre for their open day and had lunch there. It was quite busy with a lot of kids running around. The noise made me upset. I do not know why it got to me so much. I had to leave. I got hiccups and started to cry. We sat in a bus stop and it took me while to calm down. Luckily it was not busy at the bus stop. But we got enough funny looks. We walked home, and had a bath together to warm me up. I fell asleep on the sofa. I felt a bit hot when I woke up and had a headache. Master made me drink a lot. I did not feel very hungry and only had my vegetable drink in the evening. Master wanted sex. He gave me plenty of chances to say no. But I wanted sex, too, and he was very gentle with me. We both were satisfied. I am sleeping in my room tonight. I am tired and need a good sleep.

Saturday already?

Last night Master asked me to sleep in his room, to be close. I took my mattress in. He slept surprisingly well. I did not. Is it really Saturday already? We are meeting Ingrid for lunch. We have not seen her for a some weeks, she has been to look after her sister which had to have an operation.

It is raining hard and very windy. There is no point going to the market, the traders will not have bothered. I need to clean myself. I have been a bit stressed the last 2 days, so I hope it goes well. Writing my diary now is part of my preparation. I shall do some yoga and meditation. Master has gone to the barber.

We are back from lunch, I feel quite tired and am having a rest in my room. I do not want to go to sleep, otherwise I will not sleep properly later. We had a nice time with Ingrid. It was nice to see her again, we had a good laugh. She enjoyed being away and do something different. Her sister's op and her recovery went well. We went to the supermarket afterwards to do some shopping. Master is reading the paper. I can hear him turn the pages. He still needs to read at the table. His hand is in a splint and it restricts him. He has an appointment at the physio on Monday morning.

Master is home

This morning I was not sure what to do, wait for Master to call me? Just go to the hospital? I spoke to Torben, he explained Master needed to get the all clear from the doctor, or he could discharge himself. He recommended to wait for a call. Which I did. I did some cleaning to keep me busy. I even cleaned the whole stair case for the house! I do feel it tonight. Master called me by 11am, he had been given the all clear. I took the car. Master thought we could go for a little drive, so we came to the house. We went to the park. The kiosk was closed so we came back again. Master was quite tired, his hand is sore. His room mate snored, so he wanted to go to bed. We had some soup for lunch and Master sent me off to yoga. We asked Mats to stay and keep and eye on Master. Mats cannot work at the moment due to his injury. After yoga I called Mats, he said Owe was Mr Grumpy personified. So I decided to better come home and give a drink with Sabine a miss. Master was not in a good mood; he knew it and tried to be nice. Quite funny really, he does not like taking pain medication. He says he does not like the effect on his body. I finally convinced him to take his allocated dose and we managed to have quiet evening in front of the tv with a good film.

Chores

Master went to check on the house and get some shopping. We usually need to get something on a Wednesday after my big shop on Saturday, like milk.

I have been to the gym this morning. I went earlier than usual and it was quite busy. In Sweden most women work, the children are safe at school. The taxes are so high, one needs a second income. Specially here in Stockholm, and on Sodermalm. So I was surprised to see quite a few people here during office hours. I switched myself off to them and did my routine. My gym visits have been a bit scatty lately, so I find it a bit hard work. But it is good. Muscles need to be used or they waste away quite quickly. Sadly they do not keep me warm, and I am trying to build up a layer of fat as well. It has been quite nice, cold, but dry. Not much sun. Lasse and Per flew to Spain today. Lucky them!

Master was back when I came home and tried to cook. I had to help chopping some vegetables and in the end did it all. Bless him. He has a check up tomorrow.

In the afternoon I did my homework. I did not notice the time and was surprised when Master brought me some tea and a piece of the cake, along with a shake. He always makes my shakes. Recently I got into the routine to chop some vegetables and have them ready in a container so he just needs to put them into the blender. It is how he can be part of “me”. And it gives him an element of control over me and my body. He feels he is looking after me, and I do not have the responsibility.

Anyway, it works for us, our roles in this make us happy.

He also had to do some work, club related stuff, and preparing for to do some shifts at a health centre next week. He worked there in December and enjoyed it, so he is quite looking forward to it.

Tonight I spent some time in the cage in the living room. Master is enjoying the book I chose for him. He says he would not have picked it, so it is good to let someone else choose.

Short update

Nothing to report. I woke Master and helped him get dressed, then went to school. He had a meeting at the building site today, he went by public transport. My teacher is working us hard, we have a lot of homework today. I went to yoga and then to the center. It was nice being with these people, somehow I have spent a lot of time with Master recently and it has kind of been intense. Although I felt specially close to him. Still, it was nice to see him at meditation. He was running late and I got a bit nervous about him not being there. I am having an early night. Oh, I really noticed my plug today. Usually I am so used to it, I hardly notice it. Because I had a little break, I felt it today. And it felt good. It is like my collar, I do not really notice it any more. But when I do, I know I am owned, and it is good.

Making more plans

I had a busy day today, doing washing, cleaning, Master had sent me to the house to get the mail and check on it. When I came home Master told me he had invited Kristoffer and his girlfriend over for coffee! Kristoffer is going to be the new assistant manager who will live above the club. He is in his late twenties and such a down to earth guy. He is a bit of a goth, so fits quite well into the environment. I managed to make a cake before they arrived. Master laid out his vision of the job and together they drew up the outline of a contract. Martin will have to have his input as well when he is back from down under next week, then they will get it professionally sorted. Kristoffer wanted a clause that he can stay in the flat for a certain time if his employment comes to an end. He had taken legal advice it seems. Very good of him. His girlfriend is a dancer in a s mall troupe, doing some very modern stuff. She showed us some footage on her phone. We promised to go to her show in March. They both have tattoos, died hair, facial piercings. When you see them in the street some people might be put off by it. But they are such nice people.

Tonight I tried putting in a plug. It was a good feeling. I am leaving it out during the night. It will will be even better tomorrow then.

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Oh, I even felt a bit sore this morning and have not worn a plug all day. I confessed it to Master and he was sorry that he had been rough. I said it was not rough, we just had a bit of a wild session. He grinned at that and said I should take my time with the plug and not force it.

We had to change the bandages, they were fraying and getting very dirty. The swelling has gone down and the bruising is gone as well. We even left the bandages off for a while. I put some cream on his hand and massaged it in. He flinched a bit, but otherwise enjoyed the attention.

We had a quiet day at home, Master did some stuff on the computer, banking etc. He sat me down over tea and talked to me about money. He had not put any money into the account which I should use for groceries for some month. I had not even noticed, as I so automatically use my account. At first I kind of split it fifty/fifty. He was ok with me paying for stuff, actually. He just wanted me to be open about it from now on. Although he has his income, like the rents, most of it goes back into an account to fund work on the house, after it has been raided last year. Of course the building work has to be funded as well, but I am still paying for that for now. We should have the money for the old club soon. Of course it will not cover all the costs, but the purchase and then some more. That is why Martin and I are investing. After all the bills have come in, we will have to review everything.

We went for a walk once the sun came through after lunch. Master held my hand. There is a park nearby, which is just big enough for a nice stroll. I miss Django.