Last night Master and I had kind of a
spark between us, but we did not take it any further. We did this
morning! First I woke him in my usual manner, he came very quickly.
So we did it again a while later, slower. We had breakfast and Master
went to the Barber again. I needed to do my routine. I need to wait
for at least an hour after eating. It can be such a restraint to my
day. I had a shower and when I came out Master said to me: don't
bother getting dressed! He wanted me on the chair. He strapped me in.
He put a blindfold on me, which is VERY unusual. Anyway, he then
proceeded to tickle me with a feather and other implements. Or
sometimes just stroke me. It was waves of sensations. Being
blindfolded was good. If I had been able to see what he had in his
hand, the effect would have been minimal. I do not know how long it
was, but when he released me and ordered me to get up it was a shock
to the system. It is good to just lay there for a while, or for the
Master to release the restraints REALLY slowly, so I can come back to
reality. People call it headspace. It is like meditation, or being
drunk, or on drugs. Although I do not know what being really drunk or
on drugs feels like. One is away from the world. Let go. Just the
here and now matters, the feeling on the skin, the pressure, the
voice of your Master. Your Master and you are one unit (ideally). The
total letting go and give your life into the hands of another person,
that is the best about bondage. The trust you need to have with the
person who has bound you. The Master needs to be a strong
personality, must enjoy being in charge. They hold your life in their
hands, and they need to know what they are doing. How deep they can
take you. A bad bondage experience can have consequences, like a bad
drug trip. Luckily I have not really had it with Master. At the
beginning it was not always 100% successful, but now we are really in
tune. With Robert it sometimes went wrong. He sometimes was very
selfish and did not “read” me. Luckily I had Barbara and Erik who
helped me get back. I guess that I sometimes had a bad experience
might have to do with my “special needs”. I cannot describe it
when a scene goes wrong, but I am sure any readers who have submitted
can understand what I am talking about. Of course it can be something
stupid like the room being cold, a noise, a false movement which
causes pain, even for just a moment. Sometimes there is an
interruption and one cannot get back, or even start. The phone rang
just after Master had tightened the last strap, but I managed to tune
it out. Master ignored it as well. That is why we have an answer
phone!
So, what else? After I got myself
together and dressed, I cooked lunch and prepared something for
Master to take with him. He had checked the answer phone. He has been
invited to meet someone at the University to talk about a job offer!
Great! I am sure he would enjoy lecturing!
Anyway, I went to the gym in the
afternoon. It is quite interesting to be there at different times. I
quite enjoyed the exercise after being bound this morning.
I came home and tidied the playroom and
polished the gear we have here. I had to remind myself to have my
shakes. I was glad when Master came home. It was too quiet here.
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