Thursday, 12 May 2016

Musings about life - again


Master and I went to the gym, he stayed on for the sauna and I went to stock up P/L's flat and give it a clean. They are back today. I did not go upstairs. Master is feeling a bit down, he thinks he might be getting a cold. I have taken extra vitamins this year and actually, have felt really good. So he thinks having a steam will help get rid of the cold. Master had the meeting, he said it went fine and he feels it is all falling into place. He has now been enrolled onto the course and will be busy studying himself.

We had a good lunch later in the day. I am looking forward to tonight, it will be a proper opening party with professional music and even press! Martin worked hard to make it happen, but then he was able to rely on his wife's expertise as well. I would like a quiet weekend with Master here at the house, we kind of have not reclaimed it yet. I feel at home here, but I am slightly confused still. I feel we have to establish a routine again. Everything is up in the air again. We kind of had a goal, which was getting the club ready, What now? Ok, Master kind of knows that he will start working at the University, I think they are planning for May. Ruth is coming in April. Otherwise everything is kind of in the air. It has been the last year, while Master has not worked. I need to find something else for me to do. Master is very good at keeping my anxiety under control, but I always have this restlessness deep inside me. It only calms down when I am deep in a scene. Or during/after good sex. I think most people feel like that, what is my purpose in life? Yes, my purpose in life is to look after Master, but there must be something else as well.

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