Wednesday, 10 August 2016

Getting ready


Today was busy, I am snatching a few moments to write my diary. Owe wants to have some time with me tonight. I want it too. He has given me my diary back earlier. He has read it. We have not talked about it. He just thanked me again for trusting him with it.

I had school and came home for lunch. Owe had something ready. I then went to yoga and had a quick drink with Sabine at the gym. I do not know much about her past, she thinks the here and now and future matters. The past shapes us, and if a friend or partner knows about experiences which have shaped us, it is important. But sometimes that information can be used negatively. I think that is one reason why I did not want to tell Owe. Robert used his knowledge about me and my quirks to “torture” me sometimes. Although I do not think Owe would ever do that. I think he suffered a bit with his Master, but like me was unable to stop it, out of false loyalty or love. Because we are slaves, submissive, we are supposed to take it? Sometimes I am in the mood to be a masochist, but that relates more to physical pain. Not mental pain.

I spoke to my teacher, our group is not on holiday next week. We are mainly doing revision now, so I can do that on my own, and she will correct it. She has asked me to write a report about my week, specialising about the farm. It will be a good exercise for me.




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