We are making decisions

It has been quite eventful today. Master and I had a good talk after dinner. I had had time to clear my head a little today, but I still feel overwhelmed by the last few weeks. I explained it to Owe, that I need to get away. I want to be able to forget it, put it aside. My head is hurting with so much thinking. I need to switch off, get away from “me”. Master understood, and he suggested I could go to a retreat or something. Maybe even go to Italy or somewhere warm. It was a nice suggestion and I appreciate it, but I do not feel like spending time with strangers, and even not to bring Sabine along again. I suddenly thought going to visit Owe's family might be nice. Spending time with the kids will certainly distract me from my problems! It is school holidays, so the adults might be happy to have me around to help look after them? We phoned Trude and she was happy for me to come. They actually do not have any holiday makers, so me being there would be great for the kids.

I am leaving on Friday. Then I remembered Master will start work on Tuesday, and I would not be here to support him. He said it is fine, he rather wanted me safe with his family and getting better, than having to worry about settling in at work and worry about me at home brooding.

Oh, something else happened. It was kind of a spur of the moment decision, I gave Master my diary from December, from when I had the dream. I gave him permission to read it. Or call Barbara and ask about it. I do not want to know the details. There must be a reason why my brain keeps blocking the memory. I brought the diary up to his office where he was doing some work, and he had a very surprised look on his face when I gave it to him. He put it to the side. After his questions on Sunday I had expected him to read it immediately, but he still has not done so. Well, at least he has not said anything about it to me. I think it is good, it shows he respects me. Which he does, anyway.

It was a good day today. We both had things to do and got on with them, meeting up for meals. We went for a walk. The flat is let, we both are a bit torn how we feel about it. It has been home to Owe for so long. But we had decided to live at the house and we are happy here. We are privileged to live here. A neighbor of Stine and Torben just sold his house, the price was ridiculous. And it is on the land side of the road!