Christmas and New Year

Master had his talk at the University today, I was allowed to come along again. We joined a tour to see the building. It is all very modern and nice. I was looking at it from the point of a potential student, but considering how difficult I found it to read the science magazines, I think taking up my studies again is out of the question. But I enjoy keeping my brain busy.

Owe was much more confident this week giving his speech. Especially the 2^nd time. He was sure of his subject.

We went to a cafe nearby where he had lunch when he was working in the neigborhood. He was warmly welcomed by the owner. Seems he was here every day. Were my lunch boxes not enough?

We came home in the late afternoon. It was dark, cold and wet. Master lit a fire. He put me into some restraints and we watched some television. Almost a normal day for us. I managed to keep my mind off the exam tomorrow.

The exam went well, it was quite tough. I met with Master and Ingrid afterwards for lunch, they were eager to hear how I got on. Then I had yoga. There will be a break now for 2 weeks until the new year. I cannot believe, this is my 2^nd christmas and New Year in Stockholm!

We are driving to Dalarna tomorrow, I have packed already. Day to day I am not too bothered having to deal with my “special needs”, but when I go away and the stuff fills a whole travel bag by itself, it is daunting.

I am finally getting some peace and quiet to write my diary. I was actually not too bothered about leaving the house all tidy and clean. Of course we tidied up, and I gave the bathrooms a clean while Master packed the car and cleaned our breakfast stuff away. We took our time driving. We stopped for lunch. The kids were excited to have us here, and Dog remembered us as well and followed us and got into the way. By now they are used to us and our stuff. We are staying in the main house, only Trude lives there, but during the day the whole family is in and out. There is snow here and we had to inspect the snow family the kids have built. We are a bit further north here, so it gets dark even earlier! And COLD! We had fika, the wood burner was on and it was nicely warm.

Master and I decided to have an early night. It took us some time to figure out how to fit the restraints to the bed. Funny, I am apprehensive about using them.

So, it was christmas today. It was not so much a religious celebration here. In Sweden it is more about food, drinking and presents. In the morning we helped with preparations for the dinner and keeping the children busy. Lunch was late and long. It was just us, the immediate family. The farm is quite isolated, and most people they know had their own family festivities to attend. Alcohol was served, but no-one drinks a lot. The animals had to be tended to in the evening, not a good idea to be drunk! I had a sip of a home brewed schnapps. Mymy. It took my breath away. Even here, deep inland, the buffet offered fish, but we had a lovely piece of beef from their own herd.

The presents were exchanged after the meal. Of course it was mostly for the kids. We had presents for Trude and the adults, they had requested stuff. Owe and I did not give presents to each other. After my rather dubious present to Owe for his birthday, he had made it a rule not to give presents – ever!

After the animals had been put to bed, the family left, the kids were very tired after trying all their presents. Owe and I sat a while with Trude. Last night we only put the restraints around my ankles, that gave me enough chance to move around, but kept me in bed. I hardly noticed them. I hope he will be happy with only those. I am actually quite tired tonight and look forward to a good nights sleep.

Today I spent some time playing with the children in the snow. Master helped to look after the animals. Dog was enjoying playing with us. When we came in for some lunch, I noticed that I had gotten cold. We had been so physically active, I felt warm. But inside and out of the warm clothes, I suddenly started to shudder. Owe sat down with me in a comfy chair by the oven and warmed me up. I think Trude was a little uncomfortable. I guess seeing two men like this is a bit strange for her, never mind how open minded one is. He is helping with the animals again at the moment. He does not want me to help, he is afraid I might pick up an infection.

Last night Master put the other restraints on me. Then he gave me blow job. Oh my god!

Enough said about that. Owe and I went to the local town today and had lunch in a local restaurant. Most shops were still closed, but it was nice to have some time just the two of us. It was a sunny day, and we went for a walk. Again, once we came home, I had gotten cold. All the hot drinks and sitting in front of the oven does not help, the best way to get warm is to cuddle up to Master. The kids accept it, but the adults are a bit shy. We are aware of that and try to keep intimacy to our room. Not that we are all over each other anyway.

Just a short entry today, I am spent. Last night Master put me into some rope and gagged me and left me alone (we had the baby monitor on, how he explained that to Trude I would like to know!). I enjoyed it. He only untied me when he came to bed, and then he put me into the restraints. I did not sleep very well. Funnily I got too hot and could not get the duvet off enough due to the restraints. Master was sleeping so deeply, he did not notice my shuffling.

We went dog sledging today. We had talked about it when we told them about our trip to Canada and the kids wanted to experience it. It was good fun. Afterwards we were able to warm up in a hot tub. Nevertheless I felt cold when we came home, and of course I was very tired. Master and I went to bed. He was afraid I would get ill and let me sleep. Apparently the children could not understand why we would go to bed during the day.

We are going home tomorrow. It has been long enough, I want my familiar environment back, my own bed. My own kitchen and my routine. I am starting to have problems, I am just not as relaxed. I had to clean myself this morning, and as I was slightly under time pressure as we had the sledging booked, it was not going well. I tried again tonight, it was better. Still, I am feeling a bit funny tonight. As it is our last evening, I am expected downstairs for a goodbye drink. Well, better go, then I can get to bed soon!

Home, sweet home! Owe put the heating on before we got here via his phone. I immediately unpacked and we were very much at home soon. Trude had packed us some food, and we had stopped to buy some fresh stuff. Poor Master did most of the driving, as I was not feeling too well.

The food in Dalarna was very nutritious, and I still had my shakes, but it was different than we usually have, heavier. So I had a bit of stomach pains, and a headache I just could not get rid off despite taking some pain medication.

It was sad to say goodbye, I know Master is very worried about his aunt, that she overdoes it. She is still very active looking after the house and helping look after farm issues. She is not that old yet, in her mid-sixties. But then my father was that age when he suddenly died.

Dog knew something was up, and he tried to get into the car again. He did not spend much time in the house this time, he slept in the barn with the other dogs. But he was always on the porch in the morning waiting for me. He is still very much a puppy, but quite good at discipline when he wants to. Tonight I spent some time in the cage, in the play room by myself. Master checked on me several times.

Master suggested to spend a few days at the flat and spend New Years eve there. After so much time in the quiet country he fancied to hear the street noise, although it is not too bad, as we are so high up. So we packed again. Of course we do not keep anything at the flat any more, so the car was pretty full. I drove the short distance. Luckily we found a space right outside the house. Per and Lasse came to help carry some stuff. We invited them to spend New Years eve with us, which they gladly accepted. We invited all of our neighbours, but everyone already had plans. Master suggested to invite Martin and his wife. Usually Martin had to work, of course. They were free and gladly accepted. Master and I moved some furniture around to make it different then when the Germans were here, we were a bit dubious about using the sofa. We just remembered the footage. I like sitting on the floor anyway, so I am not too bothered.

I was a bit unsettled as my room is full of stuff from the club. Luckily I can still use the bathroom ok. I will have to sleep I Owe's room, but I will use the cage. I am quite looking forward to it.

After we had sorted the flat we went to the gym. It was late afternoon, a time I rarely use it. We were the only customers. It felt a bit strange. The staff seemed happy to see customers and we asked them to monitor us, as we had quite a few days off and needed to get back into it. We both enjoyed the work out. Tonight Master put some upper body restraints on me. It is harness which is well used, it was one of Arne's designs. I like it. It leaves me enough freedom to function, but also restricts me enough.

Today we did some shopping for the party tomorrow and made ourselves at home more. I slept well in the cage last night. It was nice doing yoga in the living room. The flat feels very empty though. I missed our little table for breakfast this morning. I started to get everything ready and automatically turned to lay it. But now I had to bring everything to the big table. Master said he felt a bit disorientated when he woke up. He woke up before I had a chance to wake him. I was looking forward to have that time together. We went to the gym again in the afternoon, Master stayed on to go to the sauna. I came home and prepared a light dinner for him. Tonight we are going to the cinema. It is only a few bus stops. We booked tickets for one of the action movies Master enjoys.

After I had done yoga this morning I remembered last year. How much has changed!!!

I went to wake Master, I watched him sleep for a while before I started my routine. I have to guide him out of sleep. I took care of his morning erection, and then we had a coffee in bed. He also commented on how much has changed this year, how much we had experienced. He said it is good that we both keep the diary. One does not remember everything how it truly was. And we met some people because of the blogs. He asked me what I expect of the new year. Honestly, I had not thought about it. I am happy as things are at the moment. I do not want to think too much about the future. It always comes different anyway. Life has it's own plans.

Master Owe andIi went alcohol shopping. What a procedure! One has to look in a catalogue what one wants, write the code number on a piece of paper, pay for it, then find an assistant, who are behind a counter, they will get the bottle(s). It does not stop drinking alcohol, so why do they not sell it openly? This way I guess the government gets more money. We did not buy much, two bottles of wine and something sparkling for midnight. Master splashed out on something good. I had to swallow at the price. I am cooking beef Wellington, and we are going to have Swedish salad before, and then fruit salad and ice cream.

This afternoon I cleaned the flat. Master was laughing at me, it was hardly dirty, we have only been here 2 days!

Happy New Year!

We had a nice time last night, Martin of course knows Per and Lasse, his wife had not met them before. She was the only woman last night, but she is used to being surrounded by gay leather men.

The food was good, the beef was cooked nicely pink, and we toasted the new year. From our balcony we had a nice view of fire works. Our guests left soon after. Martin and his family are travelling to Australia and New Zealand for 4 weeks, he used to live there for several years as a young man. We met with Stefan for a drink in a local bar. Many people have a long time off and the atmosphere was very relaxed. Master called some people to extend best wishes.

I only had 2 glasses of alcohol last night, but I felt it today! I had something to eat with every course, and I am a bit out of rhythm anyway, so my resolution is to get me back on track. I have put some weight on though!

My classes start again on Tuesday so while Master read his paper I have had a look through my books and revised. He fell asleep on the sofa! We were up quite early this morning.

I was a bit out of sorts yesterday. Sometimes important dates and late nights do that to me. I went to the house to check everything is ok and I needed to fetch some clothes and books. I had a letter from the States. I did not read it until I was at home. Home is where Master Owe is, so it is the flat.

It was written before christmas. It was nice to have it. It is a positive letter. It was hard in November, a lot of information, especially for her.

Master and Martin had a meeting with Mr Allender and the architect to discuss the final plans for the building work. Poor Martin, having to work hours before jetting half around the world. To be honest, I guess he was glad to be away from 3 fretting females about what to pack.

It felt funny to be back at the house. I almost did not want to go back to the flat. It is so clinical there. And I cannot sleep in my own room. I like being in Master's room, and be in my cage, but it does cramp our life. It is ok for a few days.

Using the kitchen here is a bit cramped. Of course we only have the basics here, as well. I just have to treat it as if we are in a holiday place. And still it is so familiar. Our neighbours greet us and want a chat. The people in the shops know me. I am torn.

So, back to my routine. Class, lunch, yoga, cooking at the centre, dinner and meditation. Wow. Apparently most people take time off longer, so that all my classes are running is quite unusual.

At yoga a few regulars were missing. Everyone was at class and eager to get on. We are all very motivated, except for me everyone is planning to go to University and doing another course to prepare them. It is good to be in such a motivated group.

The building work started today. Well, still ripping things out. Master had to meet the builders first thing this morning, he was not happy to be woken by me just after 6am. It is still absolutely dark, but the work is indoors. Master said the foreman was dubious about the plans, and I will have to come along soon and we have to show him what a real Master and slave are like these days.

Bring it on!

Today we had some time in the play room. It felt cold in there, it has not been used in a long time. Most of the gear is actually at the house, so we had to make do with what was there, which was mostly the big pieces of equipment and rope. Master - as always - was very inventive and we had a good time. We went to bed afterwards to have a long session of sex. He got me to orgasm twice!

Tonight we were sitting in the living room, me on the floor, as usual. Master was caressing my neck and playing with my hair and collar. I liked that. Sometimes he put his finger under the collar, which made it very tight. It did not cause me any problems, and it was nice to be reminded that it is there.

I am downstairs, I am going to sleep here tonight. Master is in hospital! He had an accident at the building site. He had a phone call that there was a problem, and then a heavy tool box fell through the ceiling onto his hand. He broke his hand and had to have an operation to fix it. Per met me when I came home from yoga. I was very annoyed that they did not inform me earlier, by then Master was just having his operation. He had decided that there was nothing I could do anyway and I would just get upset. Per helped me pack some things for Master and took me to the hospital. We had to wait for Master to be brought to a ward. Then he still was very groggy. He instructed me to stay with P/L, after getting the ok from them that I could stay with them. His hand was heavily bandaged. I have to go and retrieve the car tomorrow. It is still at the club. I think this will mean that we will stay at the flat for a bit longer, so I need to fetch more stuff from the house. Oh my, my head is buzzing! I guess we have to be thank full it was only his hand. It is my worst nightmare, that something happens to Owe. I do not think I would be able to cope, on so many levels. Well, Per ordered me light out.