We are trying ...

Sunday, 8th

Master lost his patience with me last night. He usually handles himself well and keeps control, but I guess he is not quite himself at the moment either. As I wrote yesterday, I was all over the place, I did not really know how to behave, and Master did not give much guidance either. I just wanted to make sure he is comfortable, and I tried to expect what he wants, so I was a bit too attentive. Finally he took charge and ordered me to get the cage. We have some metal cuffs which are attached to the bars and he managed to get those onto me. He threatened to send me downstairs for Per to punish me. That would mean the whip. And not for pleasure. I do not think my behaviour was THAT bad!

So, we had a good night, Master decided to keep his hand free. We both still did not sleep too well.

This morning we sat down and talked about the next few weeks, and Master set up some rules. Yeah! It was a nice sunny day and we drove to the house to get some gear. I had to wait in the car while Master packed some stuff. We drove down to the park and went for a short walk and had one of the marvellous hot chocolates at the kiosk.

Master was getting uncomfortable and needed to rest and take some pain medication. So we came home and while he rested I cooked lunch. I feel quite comfortable in the kitchen now, especially after I fetched some equipment yesterday.

Master got annoyed with his inability to use both hands to eat. I knew better now than to offer help. I have to wait until he gives up and asks me to something specific. I think it is a natural urge to jump in and help. I see that with parents of toddlers. They are so afraid the child will fall over.

In the afternoon it had started to rain. We both sat and read the paper. Master had to sit at the table to read it, as he cannot hold it. In the evening we watched some tv. I sat on the floor as usual. Master played with my hair in my neck again, it is soo nice. We ended the night with a delicious blow job.

Monday, 9^th

Ah, day three. We are getting back into our roles. I am glad we talked about some rules. It is still hard for me sometimes, but it is good training. I am naturally submissive, but it is another skill/mindset being a slave.

We had a shower in my bathroom. Master decided we better move the paperwork to the office as the damp air might affect it. Anyway, I would like to be able to sleep in my room again, so I will have to clear it. Then we went to the building site. Master introduced me as part owner. They picked up their conversation from Thursday. At first I was not really paying attention, I was just looking around. Then I kind of remembered my experiences with helping Master Robert, and I paid attention and understood what the foreman was talking about.

In the afternoon Master Owe had an appointment at the hospital. They changed the bandages. The hand is still quite swollen and very bruised. It looks so creepy to see the metal stick out of the hand.

They gave it a good clean and bandaged it again. The new bandages are less thick and Master hopes he will be able to use his fingers more. They took an xray to see that everything was still in place and there is no infection. We were there for 2 hours. Master was tired afterwards. I took him home and then did some shopping. I went to our cafe for a coffee. I felt guilty about leaving him on his own, but I felt I needed some space. And I felt guilty for needing some space. I confessed it to Master when I came home, he said it was ok. He had quite enjoyed being at home alone.

I mentioned would he be alright tomorrow, all day? We agreed I come home for lunch, and come back after yoga before going to the centre a bit later. I phoned them to update them and that I would be in later. Of course they were fine with it. Master is planning to come to meditation.

I have started to move some boxes. I noticed it strained me and it will take me several days to do it. Master suggested we get one of the neighbors to help. But I am ok at the moment, I like still sleeping in Owe's room. He likes it too, so we carry on for now.