I am still struggling

At class they know that I am married to a man and I think they kind of have an idea that we are not a “normal” couple. I am not sure if they would understand, most of them are from a cultural background which is not exactly gay friendly. I am finding it a bit strenuous. Master is getting bored, he is cranky because he cannot do much.

I always said I am open about me being a slave, but I do control it who I am open to. Am I contradicting myself? It is just that most people have no idea about bondage, about dominance and submission, about M/s. And they would not expect it from a couple who look so “normal”. So if people want to believe I am vanilla, because that is what they are familiar with, fine. It is easier for me. For people who have an understanding, I am happy to explain it. Sometimes I forget and I use words the muggles do not always understand, either. Words from the scene. Sometimes they look at me puzzled, they may ask “what”, and then I repeat myself in muggle terms. Something like this happened this morning. It has just been so intense the last few days. Good and bad intense. I got a funny look. My class mate enquired if everything was ok at home. I was able to re-assure her.

I went home for lunch, Master had managed to prepare something again. I went to yoga and had a drink with Sabine afterwards. She is always such a balanced person and manages to calm me by just being her. I felt energetic when I came home and wanted to be a good slave. We just spend the evening watching tv.