Wednesday, 23 March 2016

Despite a fuck I am on edge


Last night I snuggled up to Master before I went to sleep on my mattress. I traced the tattoo, first with my finger, than with my tongue. Master wanted me to attend to his nipples. It was nice, it was so intimate. He got a hard on, but he did not want to do anything about it. Shame. I haven't been fucked for, - a week.

I went to the gym. Master suggested it. I haven't been for a week and it was hard work. I have really neglected the gym for a few weeks, as we were in Dalarna as well. I met with Ingrid for lunch, Master had arranged to meet Stefan. Ingrid picked up on my stress, it was good to talk to her.

I went to yoga. I needed to do some shopping. When I came home Master was pleased to see me. He embraced and kissed me. We ended up having sex on the living room floor. It was fast, rough. But, oh it was what I had needed. I think he was slightly drunk.

He had a rest on the sofa, while I put the shopping away and started on dinner. I felt like something had not been resolved. I was a little on edge. I kind of have been on edge all week, and I am sick of this feeling. I have talked to a lot of people, how I feel out of sorts. We have drawn up rules, Master is being Master, I do my stuff. Nothing has really changed, but I feel a bit not quite right. I cannot find words for it. I cannot define my feelings, my thoughts. There is just a kind of restlessness, being on edge. When we have done bondage, it was good. But as soon as we are “normal” , ….

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