The plane has landed and it is a crash

So. Mum is here. And we had a huge row already. We were settling in at home, she was tired, but wired from the travel. She asked me to take my collar off for her visit. Or cover it up. I was livid. I went into the garden to calm down. Mum waited for me to come back in. She apologised. I explained what it means to me and why I got upset. She understands my reasons, and said she will try to ignore it. It his her problem. Owe came home right at the end of it, we were still a bit cautious around each other. He picked up on it and wanted to know what is going on. He was quite upset as well. He talked with Mum about it as well, and we set some rules for her visit. We had dinner and a nice conversation catching up. I did not eat much, as usual, and had my shake, and Mum was about to say something when she remembered. She mentioned if we will be going to meditation. She encouraged me to go, as she just wanted to have a bath and go to bed. I was reluctant, but Master ordered me to go. He wanted to stay at home as well. I felt funny, going out on my own, but I thought it would be good for me, to get some distance. I managed to switch off. People were surprised to see me, they asked if Mum had arrived, but I think they picked up that I did not want to talk about it.

Master picked me up from the train station. He had been waiting for me. It was a nice surprise to see him there. He hugged and kissed me, and I did not mind. It was nice to be in his arms and smell him. I almost wanted to cry, I just felt so safe with him.

I was calm this morning and did my routine of clearing up after Master left for work. I got some flowers to put into Mum's room.

The driver was very nice, he did not talk too much. He had to wait at a specific area at the airport, so I had to phone him once I had found Mum. Her flight was on time and we had just been there for 10 minutes when she came through. I had made a sign for her. It felt strange to see her. We hugged for ages. She was excited to see me and about her experience. It was the first time that she had flown. And of course we had treated her to an upgrade, which she did not know about. She only found out at check-in. She told me off for spending that money, but what else am I going to spend it on? I kind of owe it to her that I even have that money. That is sick.

She asked me some questions about Stockholm on the drive and I explained our initiatory for the week. She was excited to see the neighborhood and the house. I did not show her our bedroom wing.

Well. Owe has a day off tomorrow and if Mum is up to it we want to do some sight seeing.